One Year Anniversary

Jake and I celebrated our one year wedding anniversary on the 24th of September. Can I just say, that was the fastest year of.my.life! And I have a feeling it’s just going to go faster from here! I could go on and on and on and on and on about how wonderful my husband is. A lot of times, I do. I get sappy, I get spoiled, and I want to shout out to the world that this is REAL! This kind of happiness exists! Our real life fairytale!

Don’t get me wrong, I do not live a life of denial. Marriage is hard.. its work.. and its hard work EVERY SINGLE day. There are days when I am pretty dang unlovable. And he loves me anyway. There are days I want to punch him in the face, he isn't very lovable either. But I love him anyway..To me, that is a fairytale. Someone that you know EVERYTHING about (and I mean EVERYTHING!) and you still love them anyway. On good days and bad. Through ups and downs. On our worst days, and on our best. When things are hard and when things are easy. We just love each other!

We were able to have the day off for our anniversary so the night before we went to Cheesecake Factory for dinner and spent our day sleeping in, shopping, and best of all Kailee's school carnival. It was a perfect day!

This next part is for Jake and I. I want to remember all the little things I love about him on the hard days. And I want him to know how much I love all of these things about him on the days when I’m not very loveable ;) On days where the stress is sky high, on days where I feel lonely or down because I miss my family and friends from home, the days where I’m super emotional and NOTHING satisfies me. The days where I’m tired and I’ve given as much as I can give and I break. The days where I let the little things bother me. The days when I have a hard time prioritizing all that I need to do. On the days I feel bad for myself. On the days where I have a hard time communicating.. I could go on and on.. I am FULL of flaws. Thank you for loving me through them all.. and if there is ever a day where you wonder about your decision to marry me.. I hope you read this and remember all the things I love about YOU!

I love that he has to touch me when he sleeps. I love that he tells me thanks for dinner every night before bed. I love that he calls me sugar. I love that he holds EVERY door open for me ALL the time. I love how he says my name. I love that he doesn’t let me move or carry anything that is even remotely heavy. I love that he goes to the grocery store with me. I love that he LOVES my cooking. I love that he makes me feel different, still. I love that he makes me want to be better. I love that he keeps me grounded. I love waking up to his baby lotion cheeks. I love that he is such a good dresser. I love that he compliments me at least once every day. I love that he calls me every morning before he gets his day started. I love that he makes me text him every morning when I make it to work. I love that I can wear ZERO make up, pull my hair up and have stinky breath and he STILL makes me feel beautiful. I love that he texts me just to say he’s thinking of me. I love that he has so much drive for better and more. I love that he is such an amazing daddy. I love that he will do anything and everything I ask him to help with. I love that he is a hands on dad. I love that he surprises me all the time. I love that he listens when I need to vent. I love that he smells so good all the time. I love that his shoes have to match. I love his 60+ hats. I love his watch collection. I love the way he talks. I love it when he giggles. I love that he makes me laugh. I love that  every day I have someone who can’t wait to see me. I love his hugs. I love his hands. I love that he always holds my hand in the car. I love that he always puts his hand on my leg. I love how he sticks up for me. I love how he plays with Kailee. I love how he looks at me when we’re fighting disagreeing and I can tell he’s sorry. I love his sweet kisses. I love how he answers when I call him. I love how we hate being apart. I love how easily our hearts opened up to each other. I love how much he loves sports. I love going to BYU games with him. I love that he introduced me to the Braves (and really Major League baseball). I love that he shares so many hobbies with me. I also love that we can have our own hobbies. I love that he loves my family. I love that he can’t wait to come home to me everyday after work. I love that he secretly hates my girls nights, only because he misses me. I love that he is so excited to have a baby again someday. I love how he rubs my back and feet EVERY time I ask him to. I love that he plays with the hair on his knuckles. I love that he is proud of me. I love that he cares enough to work on things he knows make me sad. I (secretly) love that he teases me. I love how he tells Kailee how much he loves her. I love that he is such a hard worker. I love that he is so active. I love that he plays football twice a year and has to match from his socks to his gloves and EVERYTHING in between. I love that he spoils me. I love that he texts me when anything good or bad happens during his day. I love that he says sorry anytime he’s wrong. And even when he’s not. I love how much he loves and cares about his brothers. I love that he loves to make people laugh. I love how he can make ANYONE feel comfortable. I love how good he makes me feel. I love that he keeps me warm. I love his amazing voice. I love when he plays the guitar and sings for me while I’m in the bath tub. I love that he will kill spiders, even though he’s scared of them too. I love how safe he makes me feel. I love that he doesn’t talk badly about others. I love his sense of humor. I love that he does the laundry most of the time. I love his patience. I love that he helps me clean up after dinner. I love that he will vacuum any time I ask and sometimes when I don’t because he knows how much I love ‘lines’ in the carpet. I love the way he cracks his knuckles before he gets out of bed. I love how fast he falls asleep. I love that he takes the trash out without me ever having to ask. I love that he is so thoughtful. I love the little notes he leaves for me. I love that I trust him more than I’ve trusted anyone else in my life. I love that he trusts me just as much. I love that we can be our WHOLE selves around each other. I love that we are more in love now that we’ve ever been. I love that we have learned (and are still learning) how to communicate. I love that kiss he gives me that takes my breath away. Not the rushed kiss.. the real one! Even though I’ll take all his kisses.. I REALLY love his kisses ;) I love that he is so understanding and patient with my crazy emotions. I love that he remember special days in my life, not just the big dates. I love that he always waits for me order first at restaurants. I love that he will call and order pizza because I HATE calling to do anything. I love that he reminds me every night to take my birth control. I love that he wants to make Kailee and I happy above anything else. I love him for bringing her into my life. I love him for giving me my very own family.

Jake – there are so many things I love about you. I didn’t even have to pause a second between the hundred things I just listed. I could go on all day. You are amazing. You are my best friend. You are my happiness and my strength. You are the reason life is so good. You are my future and the reason for my hard past. I got you, more than I ever could have hoped for. Thank you for loving me when I’m not lovable. For treating me with respect and always looking out for me. This has been the hardest and by far the best year of my life. I love you more than words could ever say, but I’ll die trying. I will spend each day for the rest of our lives proving to you how happy and proud I am to be your wife. You’ve given me more than I could have ever dreamed of having. Thanks for all you do for Kailee and I. For being the best daddy and husband we could ask for! Happy Anniversary to my sweetheart! I love you more than life itself! I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life next to you! And these words I spoke one year ago, I will speak for the next 50. Our wedding vows mean more to me now than the did then. I love you baby! Thanks for everything you do! Xoxo

The day you walked into my life, I knew a lot of things. I knew that you were it.. I knew that THIS was it.. and I knew that I would never again be alone. This was finally the beginning of the rest of my life. The rest of OUR life. You, me and Kailee. Life was no longer about me. it quickly became, and forever will be, US. My search was over.

Jake, you are my best friend and my one true love. When I´m with you, I feel I can be the person I want to be, and I cannot imagine my life without you. You make me smile, you stick up for me, you take care of me and you are always interested in what I have to say and do. Today, I want to make a promise to you and to myself, in front of our friends and family, to love and honor, protect and respect you for the rest of my life.

I promise to encourage your individuality,
Because that is what makes you unique and wonderful.
I promise to nurture your dreams,
Because through them your soul shines brightest.
I promise to be next to you through all of our challenges,
Because through them we will become stronger.
I promise to share with you all the joys of this life,
Because together they will be that much sweeter.

Lastly, I promise to you… perfect love
For one lifetime with you could never be enough.

I love you, Jake.. and forever could never be long enough for me. Thanks for marrying me and making me the happiest girl alive! 

(some of my favorite pictures from my favorite day)