Valentines 2012

I have to brag about my AMAZING Valentines day.. I am SO spoiled and I definitely married a hopeless romantic! I love him for surprising me.. it doesn't happen easily.. I monitor our bank account like a psycho.. and he SUCKS at lying.. So anytime there is a surprise coming, I have some sort of clue.. Not this year! What a sweetheart!

We started our weekend before Valentines with our FAVORITE little girl :) We made a fun Valentines craft for Grandma Andrus.. I got the idea from a website to keep kids entertained while indoors.. Cute website with TONS of ideas! This lady has to be the coolest mom! (also, a stay at home mom.. FOR SURE!) Check it out here. This lady is seriously genius! So many fun things for the little ones! Anyway, we did this craft and Kailee lasted about 6 minutes.. Success! haha.. I was hoping she'd last while I got dinner prepared.. Oh well, it did turn out pretty cute.. I may or may not have done all of it myself.. she added some fabulous coloring though.. She was so proud!

Love this smile!

On Valentines Day, I had a special delivery from a special looking dude.. About 2:30pm the receptionist called to see if I would come sign for a delivery..( I was wondering when those flowers were coming ;) ). I walked to the front of the office and notice what appears to be Joe Dirt delivering my flowers.. He didn't look at me, but was dressed in a full grey delivery uniform. A hat with long disgusting hair and MAJOR chops.. Walking up I realized that man was standing JUST like my husband ;). I noticed right away that it was him.. Funny guy I married! I could hardly kiss him, he looked SO different. Wish I had a picture.. it was hilarious! But I do have a picture of the beautiful flowers he delivered... What a sweetie! Love him!

This picture seriously doesn't do 'em justice. They are BEAUTIFUL! 6 red.. 6 pink :)



That night was also the Lady Antebellum concert.. Jake had given me tickets for Christmas and we were SO excited! I snuck out of work early and we hit Olive Garden for a quick dinner before the concert.. Yum! I crave that place more than any other place in the world! The salad?! To die for! Love it! We headed downtown to catch the concert and it was AMAZING! We had such a great time and I loved being able to sit next to my cute preggo sister! I think I rubbed her belly a billion times! I can NOT wait for that little man to get here! I want to love on him and munch his cheeks! I'm not sure how I will be able to wait another 4 months! :) We had such a great night! Here are a few pics we snapped..

Minus the chops.. isn't he so handsome?!

Linds Joey and baby Black :)

We left the concert exhausted.. I won't lie, all I could think about at that point was how many hours until my alarm went off.. Sorry babe, I wasn't thinking about Valentine's lovin' ;).. We got in the car and headed home.. or so I thought ;).. He told me there was one last surprise under my seat.. I pulled this out..

He had arranged for both of us to have the next day off.. He got in touch with my boss and cleared it though him and everything.. I had NO idea! We drove to the Anniversary Inn on South Temple and had a night all to ourselves! I was shocked and SO happy! We walked into the room and it was covered in rose petals.. along with chocolate covered strawberries :) See what I mean by romantic? He packed our bag all by himself.. He had to be sneaky about it, since he knew I'd notice if anything was missing :) He packed a spare toothbrush, bought an extra tube of toothpaste, my pajamas and a hat for the next day.. He told me he forgot my make up on purpose.. because I don't need it. Awwwe... How lucky am I?! He ran my bath and snuck out a baggie with my birth control pill for the night.. He wasn't about to forget that ;).. He then pulled a hair tie out of his pocket so I could pull up my hair.. Does this man know me or what?! I can NOT sleep with my hair down.. I pull it up every night to sleep.. not very attractive, I wouldn't blame him if he forgot it.. but he didn't.. He really is the best! We had a long hot bath and talked and laughed the rest of the night. What a romantic! It was SO nice to spend the night away and together.. I love him so much! Breakfast arrived at 9 the next morning.. We ate and he seemed in a bit of a rush.. We got dressed and headed towards home.. again, I thought ;) He told me he had one last surprise.. He was on the phone with work and 'missed' our exit.. And the next.. He finally let me in on the surprise.. We were going to pick up Kailee bug from school :) I was SO excited! Almost as excited as she was when she saw her daddy ;) It was a surprise for her too! She was holding her best friends hand walking out and saw him, dropped her hand and RAN to jump in his arms! So sweet! We all got to spend a fun day together.. We went to Beauty and The Beast at the theater and played lemonade stand at home. What a PERFECT day! I love my Valentines so much! Not sure how this perfect day will ever be topped!

Hope you all enjoyed yours as well! I am a huge believer in love everyday, not just Valentines.. but getting EXTRA spoiled, was really nice! I love you babe.. Thanks for being so good to me! And for being such a good daddy! We love you! XoXo

And this cute thing! NO way could it get better than that!

So it's true..

You know.. what they say about when your kids get hurt? Okay.. before I begin my tramatic story, let me say.. I know that some may feel that I wouldn't REALLY understand, because I'm not a mommy yet. But, I am a parent.  I hate when people dismiss me as a "step-mom".. Like it some how means I don't quite care as much as an actual parent.. It's really become my biggest pet peeve lately.. I'll tell you what, if loving my own child is even an ounce more than I love Kailee, I think my heart may physically explode.. I don't believe and refuse to think that those two loves will be any different. One will never be more, one will never be less.. When I married Jake, I knew that. I (luckily) don't have the pressure of having to raise her. She has a wonderful mom and dad who do that.. I am just in more of a 'supporting role' if you will.. But I believe, I too, am responsible for the well being, safety, and teaching right from wrong for this little princess.. So yes, I consider myself a parent.. That being said.. I had my first tramatic experience last week. My heart still hurts a little today. :(

When we meet Angie for the exchange, we always meet in the same place.. Small parking lot, easy access to the freeways for us both, and it's right smack dab in the middle of our two homes.. Works out nicely! Anytime we get there first, Kailee will get out of her seatbelt and come sit on my lap. Last night, nothing different. She crawled up and sat on my lap as we waited for Angie. She was watching for her, and standing on the floor in front of my seat.. She was leaned up against the dashboard, and apparently.. I wasn't thinking. I tickled her sides... She, of course, JUMPED because 1 - it tickled, and 2 - I probably scared the bejeesus out of her. Well, she smacked her poor head right on the windshield.. Hard enough that the windshield cracked.. or shattered, I guess you could say. It didn't exactly break, but you get what I mean..
She didn't cry, scream, or make a sound.. she just cuddled right down... My heart dropped INSTANTLY. Concussion? Did it knock her out? Was she okay? Jake panicked a little, I tried to keep her calm and get her to talk.. A few tears rolled down her cheeks and then it hit me.. I DID it.. I caused that pain. I think my heart broke in half.. right then and there. The tears started rolling down my cheeks. I felt AWFUL! She said it hurt, but she was okay.. Angie pulled up and helped calm me down.. and luckily, Kailee didn't jump off of my lap and run to never want to see me again. She sat a cuddled me for a minute.. Her sweet little eyes were dilated, but no bump.. nothing.. I can't describe the feeling.. One of the worst feelings I've ever felt.. :( I could cry right now! She saw Zoey and immediately was fine.. no more tears (she never really cried.. a few tears fell, but not like the CRYING tears). I was horrified. We pulled away after our good-byes and I fell apart. I couldn't hold the tears in for anything. I had caused the little thing I love so much, pain. How do you get over that?! We got home, I washed my face and brushed my teeth.. I couldn't stop thinking about it.. I text Angie and that tough little girl never complained about it once.. she was running around with Zoey and hadn't said a word about it.. I felt a little better, knowing that she was okay.. but the sick feeling was stuck. No sleep for me.. I tossed and turned.. and tossed and turned ALL NIGHT LONG. I have never been so worried.. I never fell into a deep sleep, but hit that middle, where I swore that Angie was trying to call because we needed to go to the doctor.. I probably checked my phone a thousand times.. I totally overreacted, but I felt terrible.. It's been a few days now.. She still hasn't complained about it.. and I'm slowly feeling better about it.. SLOWLY. I talked to her on Monday and asked if she still loved me.. She said she did so I guess I'm safe ;) Ha ha! Very grateful that she is so forgiving of all of my short comings.. There are a LOTof them.. and she loves me anyway. I don't know what I ever did to deserve her love, but I'm sure glad I have it. Thinking about her growing up and going through all of the tough things in life makes me want her to stay 4 forever. She is so funny and loving and happy.. I hope it never changes!
So, now I have to ask.. Selfishly, so I feel better... Have any of you had a similar experience? Ever done something like that that hurt your child and wondered what he hell you were thinking?!? Please!... someone make me feel better! :)