Pretty Proud!!

So... I have to say, this may sound a bit conceited.. I normally don't talk about this kind of stuff.. EVER! Its uncomfortable and not something I just throw out there.. BUT, I am too proud of myself not to share! I have worked SO hard and come so far, I want to remind myself of how good I feel on my rough days!

As most of you know, I've been battling my weight for sometime now.. Though I've never been a tiny girl or on the other end, obese.. I've just never been super comfortable with my body.. I hide it well, and I do have great self esteem and confidence, I've just never loved the way my body looked. I've worked my ass of the last couple of months.. Working out at one point, 10x a week! I was watching and counting every calorie I put in my mouth.. It's been hard and great all at the same time.. And I have to admit, I had a pretty big smile this morning when I stepped on the scale!....

Hello, 2005 Lacy! ;) This was my weight at the beginning of my senior year of high school! Yeah buddy!  Though  my journey is FAR from over, and my body weight has most definitely shifted over the last 6 years, I feel pretty proud! To those of you also on your fitness journey, keep with it! We can do this! I've even been cheating! ;) I almost think my body needed more calories, because since I've stopped with the strict eating, it's come off even easier! I feel SO good, have tons of energy and I honestly feel addicted to working out!

Hallelujah ladies and gents!! This is HUGE for me!! Bikini body, here I come! ;) With a side of carbs and a little ice cream of course!! Let's not get TOO carried away!

Have a great weekend all! Thanks for letting me be proud for a minute! Feels good!

Special Day!

April 4^th 2006 / April 4^th 2011

Today is such a special day for me.. for a few reasons.

(April 4^th 2006) 6 years ago today, my sweet Grandma Giles passed. In some ways, it feels like yesterday. In other ways, it feels like FOREVER. I miss her. I miss her house, her grilled cheese sandwiches, her candy dishes, her Sunkist fruit gems, pistachios, her treat drawer, and the way she called macoroni and cheese ‘Kraft’. I miss the way she let us run and play and destroy her home. How she ALWAYS let us paint.. with her good and definitely expensive brushes and paint. The way she laughed and always asked me who my friends ‘belong to’. I miss looking at her miniture tea sets and Boyds Bears. I miss her Yankee candles everywhere. I miss her Aussie hairspray and her Clinique EVERYTHING. I miss all of her Bath and Body Works lotions. I miss her old green chair. I miss the Creamies in the freezer. I miss the strawberry jam she made (still to this day- best I’ve EVER had). I miss the way she’d yell at Mandy and I for eating the olives before dinner. I miss getting in the hot tub.. even at noon in July, if that’s what we wanted. I could go on and on and on..

But most of all, I miss the way she was always so fair, and how she loved us all individually and as her grandkids. The way she’d make sure we all felt special. I miss her smile and her pretty eyes. And I especially miss her good hugs. I miss seeing that look in my Grandpa's eye everytime he looked at her. They were so in love..

It breaks my heart that Jake never had the chance to meet her. But I smile everytime I think about how much she’d LOVE him and Kailee. Someday, he’ll get to see why my mom is so amazing! Miss you everyday Grandma Mary Ellen! I love you!

(April 4^th 2011) A year ago today, my sweet Jake asked me to marry him. A day I will never forget. One of the best days of my life. Just 7 short months after meeting him, he was asking me to be his wife. I’ve never been more sure of anything in my life! Though our pace moved quicker than most, I wouldn’t have had it any other way! I love him more than anything in this world. I love him for being my best friend and for bringing Kailee bug into my life. The day I said yes, my life forever changed! I had a family now. I love them more today than I ever have!

April 4^th is a pretty special day in my life! Full of WONDERFUL memories and more love than I can possibly feel without a tear or two! <3